tis a dreary day..
re-reading:draco trilogy
listening: shania twain..T_T;;

well everyone.. i always knew my beautiful happiness and bliss wouldn't last forever.. it was bound to happen someday.. the question was just, when?

well it happened today..

my poor poor palm pilot.. how'm i supposed to read fanfiction at night in my bed anymore??

i was blinded by love at 11:33 pm on 4.24.03
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an entry from my last blog^^
re-reading:Draco Trilogy
listening:Listz Hungarian Rhapsody No. 2

July 29, 2002 8:20PM

today's topic: airports they're big..they're clean.. and they're crowded.. what more could you ask for? i mean i just love airports.. they're just sooo..soo... so.. i dunno.. but i love them.. i dont mean little stupid crappy airports like the one in norfolk, va.. but like new york or georgia or california or hong kong... actually i've never been to the one in hong kong.. but a friend told me about it and it sounds so ... cool... i dont think my vocabulary extends enough to truly describe how much i love airports.. i should get a bumper sticker for my blog... er... blog sticker? yeah.. i should get one that says "i live in an airport".. or like "i love airports"... or maybe "dream house=airport".. or "visit your local airport".. or something witty like that... hehehe... witty is such a funny word.. just the sound of it...he..he..he..he... and like have you ever been on one of those airplanes that heve like 10 different sections and like 5 rows of seats and like a movie screen and everything? i mean those are just the coolest.. i mean the pleasures of technology are absoloutely beautiful... i meanl like.. the colors are gorgeous.. and there are jsut so many colors... anyway.. back to airports.. and they have all those huge restaurants and stuff... and they always have like arcades.. and clothes stores.. and everything a typical mall would have except these buildings are soooo much bigger!! and like everyone is goig somewhere and you can find almost anything in a good airport! well.. good airports dont have *everything* malls have.. but i mean like superb airports.. like in japan.. the tokyo one i think.. i've never been there of course.. but ya know... but like basically any of the international airports are what i mean... so yeah... im hungry now so im gonna go get some bowl noodles...

i was blinded by love at 06:43 am on 4.24.03
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lynchburg!
re-reading:Draco Trilogy
listening:Rachmaninoff No. 2

the lynchburg conference 2003 date has been announced everyone!! It will by held May 23-26... memorial day weekend! yay! i hope we're going!

mary wanna come? it would be boring for you.. and pretty pointless.. but i dunno.. maybe if you suddenly decided that you wanna come or something.. you'll probably hear about it from some other people at church.. but i dont really see any positive side to you going.. but i like traveling (even though this is still in virginia.. yes im that pathetic) and stuff.. and im very very tired of virginia beach.. tell me if you get the urge..

i was blinded by love at 05:32 am on 4.24.03
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*faint*
re-reading: Draco Trilogy
listening: Chopin's Nocturnes

*scream*... AH!! i just finished reading Rhysenn's uber famous "Irresistable Potion" and now i think i know why it's so famous.. *_*...

i loooooooooooove it!!

i think imstarting to float the slash boat.. >_<

oh dear.. what will courtney say? she'll be mad of course..

but this fic is so.. so.. perfect.. it's not completely flawless.. but its just sooo..soo.. gah.. words escape me.. (of course, when i related this to courtney she just said that im easily amused.. so she presumably is not going to take my word for it.. *sigh*.. hmph.. courtney dont be biased against slash!!)

*hugs self*.. it was like riding on an emotional rollercoaster.. it was just great.. the happy scenes just made you smile .. and the sad scenes made you feel so.. helpless and vulnerable like the characters.. *sigh*..

I LOVE YOU RHYSENN!!!

i was blinded by love at 08:08 pm on 4.22.03
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T_T
reading:Irresistable Potion by Rhysenn
Listening:nothin

yup... Simon won.. hmph.. first place.. and they usually choose a second place.. but tthe judges decided that Simon was the only person worthy of going to State.. *sob*.. i gueses that answers my question on how badly i did.. *begins to weep bitterly*

i was blinded by love at 09:12 pm on 4.21.03
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oooh fun!
reading:nothin right now
listening:nothin right now either

went to church.. met my dearest childhood friend!..went to her *cousin's* house.. (her cousin is Tim!! O_o)...

i think i enjoyed it.. it was fun.. ^_____^

and now on to omre pressing matters..

i am currently in the depths of despair due to the fact that I DONT HAVE ALL MY HOMEWORK DONE!!!!!!!!

*cries quietly in a dark, lonely corner*

i was blinded by love at 05:40 pm on 4.20.03
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stoopid world.. hmph
reading:nothin right now..
listening:Franz Listz.. <3

stoopid health project.. making me call the people in our group.. stoopid world.. making it so that no one in our group answers the phone except Daniel Rye the pretty boy himself.. *exasperation*.. i mean i thought Kirstin would be home.. but nooooooo... and then i was hoping Peyton would be home (haha actually i was betting that she wouldn't be home).. but noooo shes not home either.. so i call Daniel (the simple fact that he's in my group at all is amazing).. and what do i get? the man himself answers the phone.. why me? why me??.. gah.. i mean if at least peyton or kirstin had answered the phone it wouldn't be so.. weird.. but hes the only one who answers the phone, therefore leading me to believe that the whole stoopid world is against me.. gah ....

my cousin's name is Daniel.. and thats weird.. cuz my cousin isn't too shabby looking either.. in fact he looks like that guy from the F4.. which is super duper scary.. maybe i'll get a picture of him somehow and put it on my geocities account just to prove to you all that he does look like that guy.. hes better looking than that F4 huy though.. mwaha..

speaking of guys.. how could i forget the ever popular Draco Malfoy? hes just soooo cool.. his completely insolent attitude and nonchalance is very very endearing...

which leads me back to my original point (er.. not really actually).. im a Slytherin!! thats so cool.. *strikes pose*.. am i sexy? or am i sexy?

i didn't quite mean that in the literal sense.. i was just imitating something Draco would have said.. i mean he's just so cool and -- okay i think im going to shut up now .. i've already said too much.. way too much.. beginning with my whole little rant about Daniel and the cruelty of the world.. goood bye cruel cruel world! i must not betray thyself any more! and so! i.. jump!!

ya know? i think it would be easier and much less painful for me if i just pushed you all off a building instead.. jumping off a building can be so painful.. heck, i might even die!..

mwaha..

... right.. moving right along.. i shall now present to you all some of my favorite moments from Cassie's famous Draco Trilogy:

(while Draco's under the Veritas Curse...)
Hermione: Malfoy. Have you ever had sex?
Draco: No. HERMIONE, TAKE THIS SPELL OFF ME RIGHT NOW!
Hermione: I had a bet on with Ron.
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"My father used to say that fate is what you call it when you don’t know the name of the person screwing you over."-Draco
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(to Harry, about Snape) "Sorry to hear that, Harry. Well, if you find out if the refusal to wash his hair has something to do with fighting evil or is just laziness, let me know."-Fred
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(Harry) "Look, are you going to let me in or are you just going to swank around in your silk pajamas like a big fat pretentious git? Because in that case I’m leaving."

Draco looked injured. "You think I’m fat?"

(rachel: aaaah.. sweet sweet vanity.. my favorite sin.. <----that was a quote from Devil's Advocate starring Keanu Reeves) .................
"Right, because bad guys love to leave clues lying around. It’s really a desperate cry for help." –Draco
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(Dumbledore) "You were nearly frozen when the Hufflepuff girl found you while she was on her way down to the greenhouse. She pressed herself against your body, before she ran for help."

"Who can blame her?" Draco murmured.

"She pressed herself against you to warm you up, Draco," Charlie put in. "She had Muggle first-aid training. Fortunately for you."

"Sure," said Draco, leaning back against a pillow. "That’s her story."
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"When life gives you lemons, make lemonade, and then throw it in the face of the person who gave you the lemons until they give you the oranges you originally asked for." –Draco
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(about Ron) "Tell you what? That your redheaded sidekick is acting bizarrely? And you missed it? I suppose you’ve been having so much fun playing the exciting 'What On Earth Is Up With Harry’ game that you’ve missed the even more exciting sequel, ‘Bugger It, Something’s Up With Ron As Well!’"-Draco
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"What is she (Blaise) saying to them?" Hermione exclaimed, rising half out of her seat.

Parvati sniffed. "I wouldn’t know. I don’t speak 'silly bint'."
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“Home of the brave, Harry,” said Seamus, waving his fork. “Not the witty.

We’re just the cannon fodder. ‘Slowing down evil by getting in the way.’”

“Now there’s a winning attitude,” remarked Ron. “Note to self: Do not put Seamus in charge of pre-game pep talk.”

(rachel: *squeezes ron*)
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(Ron is attacked by the Hand of Glory) With a yowl like a scalded cat, Ron leaped to his feet, brushing frantically at the hand clinging to his belt. It fell to the floor, and Ginny put her foot on it. “Malfoy!” Ron choked, looking furious.

Draco grinned lazily. “Oh come on, Weasley. Like that isn't the closest to a sex life you're ever going to get.”

Ron picked up his copy of How to Get Away With Practically Anything and threw it at Draco. Draco ducked, and the book bounced off the back of his chair.

Draco sat back up, and dusted off his shirt sleeves ostentatiously. “You know, Weasley,” he remarked, poker-faced, “violent hostility is just sublimated sexual attraction.”

“Ah, well,” said Ron bitterly, “I suppose that explains why you always hated Hagrid, then.”

(rachel:oooooooooh.. wow ron, im impressed.. )
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“I don't want to be a man,” Draco said, tilting his head back and lazily slitting his eyes like a cat in the sun. “I want to be a depressed, angst-ridden teenager who can't confront his own inner demons, so takes it out verbally on other people.”

Hermione sighed. “It's too bad you weren't born a girl,” she said. “Otherwise all you'd have to worry about is whether you were the prettiest one in school.”

“Hey,” Draco said. “I am the prettiest one in school.”

(rachel:aaah.. moments like these that we all adore Draco to bits eh?)
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“I could already write Finnigan's life history. Was born, ate a potato, sucked at Quidditch, almost got shagged but not quite, ate a potato, died.”-Draco

(rachel:aaah.. so so so wittay.. *_*)
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Harry reached over and thumped Ron on the back. "Ron here happens to have many fine leadership qualities," he said.

"Oh yes," agreed Hermione. "He's currently leading the House in least amount of homework done, most amount of butterbeer consumed, and most number of letters received from suspicious French tarts with silly names."
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Bad Draco, he told himself experimentally, but nothing happened--self-criticism was not his forte.
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“Some people make scenes.Draco makes three-act plays.”-Harry
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“Oh, shut up, Malfoy. Go be invisible or something. Then again, you’d probably drop dead if you had to spend ten minutes without your own reflection.” –Harry

(rachel: thats why we all love him isn't it?)
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“Talking to Draco when he did not want to tell you something, was liking trying to converse with a particularly uncommunicative wall.”-Hermione
(rachel: always keeping in mind the fact that walls are *ever* so communicative.. )
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“Yes. Fortunately I cleverly used my spine to break our fall.”-Draco

(rachel:*giggle* oh draco, *everything* you do is cleverly done!)
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The anger vanished from Harry's expression like a candle blown out. "You know, Malfoy," he said grudgingly, pushing Draco back down on the bed. "You're probably the only person in the world who could be a huge jerk to me, then turn around and convince me that they're actually doing me a favor."

"Yes," Draco agreed, deadpan. "I am a unique and beautiful snowflake."
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“Nobody likes Blaise,” said Draco, with finality.

“Why not?” (Harry)

“Ha!” Draco sat back, his eyes sparking. “’Where to start? ‘Get me a present.’ ‘Take me to Hogsmeade.’ ‘Buy me that bracelet.’ ‘Make love to me right here on the floor.’ ‘No, not like that, like this.’ ‘Stop wasting time and get your trousers off’.’”

“Which do you want me to do first?” asked Harry, poking his fourth – fifth? – drink with the tip of the red umbrella.


(rachel: i love taht word... trousers)


and that concludes tonight's show folks! have a nice night everyone! go and have some fun!!! get drunk with your friends!!! go out and live life to the fullest!!! and while you're at it, buy me some extra fine ballpoint pens and some black leather pants!!!!

i was blinded by love at 09:24 pm on 4.19.03
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*evil grin*
reading:hp slash.. *sob*
listening:Rhaspody in Blue

be sorted @ nimbo.net

im so cool.. i took a little quiz to see what Hogwarts house i'd get sorted into and guess waht i goT!

MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!...

*murmers to self* next goal:find a way into the boy's dormitory.. >P

i was blinded by love at 02:55 pm. on 4.19.03
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ah the bitter irony of it all!
reading:hp slash.. i am deeply ashamed of my self
listening:Fred Astaire

sigh.. justwent to eastern district... gah.. *bangs head against wall*... uuuuugh.. how could i mess up!!?!? *sigh*.. i dont really blame myself for messing up.. but i do wish taht i had played better.. sigh.. in the warm up room i played it almost perfectly.. then as soon as i walk into the judges' room my legs start wobbling.. i dont get nervous very often... but the one thing that always makes all jiggly is playin piano in front of people.. i mean playing piano in front of close friends isn't taht bad .. but playing in front of people my parents know, or people i want to impress, or judges or seomthing just makes me all .. ick..

well no excuses anyway i guess.. so yeah.. Simon most definitely got first place.. and Nathan probably got second.. and maybe Jessica Sheen even got honorable mention! sigh.. i have a slight chance of getting honorable mention or even second place though.. always hoping that that Nathan kid isn't that good.. if i did get second place i'd be ecstatic.. but i think there's just noooo way i could have gotten second place.. my pieces were *far* from challenging and i didn't exactly play them perfectly.. well i played the Beethoven Andante fine i think.. (that grand piano sucked though.. i still like Helen's better)..but the Zippoli was.. *thumbs down*.. blech.. i barely even made it through the dumb thing.. Aragonaise was okay i think.. maybe i impressed the judges a tiny bit with my wonderful amount sound.. *_*.. i love big halls.. it was all loud and echoey and i was like.. whoooo!... but i was so caught up in trying to project lots of sound that i sort of ignored where my fingers were placed.. so um.. yeah.. a few misplaced notes.. whoops..

so i definitely did not get first place.. well of course i had already known that even before i went there.. but when i got there and saw that i was supposed to play RIGHT AFTER Simon.. i was like..*horrified*..*faint*.. i was wailing horribly at the utter injustice of it all.. well.. in my head at least... i dont think the administrator lady would have been very happy if i had moaned loudly during other people's performance.. sigh..

well it was obvious i didn't place first.. but there's a slight chance .. just a tiny tiny slight chance i got second... hopefully.. sigh.. but it's 85% probable that i didn't...

and its about 60% probable that i didn't get honorable mention..

(first and second place both go to State, and honorable mention gets nothing by the way)

sigh.. ah well.. there's always next year i guess...

*hysterical sobbing is heard*

i was blinded by love at 02:01 pm on 4.19.03
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*_*
reading:harry potter fanfiction!
listening:frank sinatra of course

wooooow!! guess what i did today!!! temple of music got their little paws on three of the most famous pianos in the world..

1.)Vladimir Horowitz's personal concert piano.. FRIGGIN VLADIMIR HOROWITZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
2.)the piano made by Steinway and Sons taht was meant to commemorate George Gershwin.. the piano is midnight blue and the music stand features the new york city skyline.. the piano itself has little stars on it and slylights.. *_*.. and the bench is huge.. it's got this really really soft and comfy soft blue cushion that sinks when you sit on it.. *_*.. and the legs of the bench are like.. its indescribably.. it looks like someone shot a cannon ball through the bottom of the bench.. it is soooo cool.. and then *inside* the piano the first few measures of Rhaspody in Blue are imprinted in blue ink on the whatchamacallit .. it is soooo cool!!!.. *sigh*... anyways..
3.) and VAN CLIBURN'S PIANO!!!! AAH!!!! FRIGGIN VAN CLIBURN you guys!!!!!!!! *faints*... Van Cliburn himself!!!!!! waaaaaaaiiiii!!!!

*fans self intensely*.. meh.. *faint*

and i got to play on all of them.. *_*... im gonna be having sweet dreams the rest of my life.. *_*

i was blinded by love at 06:50 pm on 4.18.03
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mwaha..>P
reading:nothin
listening:my parents

oh guess who won that holocaust art competition.. MWAHAHAHAH!!! friggin FIRST place!!!!! kekekekeke.. *evil cackle*.. so everyone go praise me like the mad little bugger i am in my guestbook.. kekekekekekekeke... mwahahahahaha... *rubs hands together menacingly*..

and guess who won Governor School's Concerto Competition.. Helen of course.. *sob*.. T_T.. i cant even begin to compare...

*hysterical sobbing*

oh oh oh i took this "Which Friends' character are you?" quiz and guess who i got!! CHandler!!.. then i took the "what type of music are you?" quiz and i got Rock.. which is a bit surprising.. but ah well... then i took the "Are you crazy?" quiz and it said that i was "wise"... wow.. i feel so wise.. *hus self*.. MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!

i was blinded by love at 05:02 pm on 4.17.03
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MWAHA!
reading:nothin
listening:nothin

YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES!!!!! OH I KNEW IT!!!!!
mwahahahahahahahahaha... who's goooood!!! yeah baby!!!
*squeal of delight*.. *jumps up and down crazily*..
yes yes yes yes yes!!!
guess where im goin for high school!.. OCEAN LAKES!!! WHOOO!! WHO'S GOOD BABY!!!!!! YEAH!!!

and now for an excerpt from another one of Maya's fanfics:

Draco laughed indulgently. "You overestimate my allure, Potter. She wouldn't notice if I began a leisurely striptease."

"Draco!" There were younger students filing down to get good seats for the Tournament and hearing him say these shocking things.

Draco looked positively gleeful. "Nobody could ever say that in quite the same scandalised fashion as you. Go on, say it again. I dare you."

doesn't taht make you want to just hug him? oh the little cutie..

i was blinded by love at 11:51 pm on 4.16.03
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quizzes are fun..^^
reading:nothing lalala..
listening:*silence*

this is really amusing.. graceful? graceful's my first name.. XD



i was blinded by love at 08:51 pm on 4.16.03
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sigh
reading:..sigh..nothing
listening:babies screaming..T_T

sigh.. research.. stoopid.. sigh.. i dont think i like this elizabeth river project very much..

We need 20 friggin sources!!! i only have 9!!!!! GAH!!!

my precious spring break spent on research and homework and piano... what is the world coming to..

i mean spring breaks are for having fun and being lazy and just basically relaxting the whole time.. but noooo our teachers have decided to give us all this homework and stuff.. and why?? to torture us?!?!? TO TORTURE US??!!?

most likely...

which reminds me..

oh hey look! that little girl is so cute! i usually dont like children.. but i smiled at therand she was so adorable cuz she just smiled back insanely.. her face just lit up at the sight of me.. aw.. how precious.. and she's like staring at me adoringly with her finger in her mouth.. aw.. isn't she the cutest?? i bet you she's gonna grow up to be such an adorable little girl.. aaaaw..

oh yes.. i was reminded of something.. and i was gonna talk about it.. but then i forgot what it was when i smiled at the little girl and she smiled back..

aaaaw.. and she was so cute! she had these little curls all hanging down around her face and her hair was a precious light red/brownish color.. and she wasn't super fat like most babies.. she was reather skinny for a baby and she was wearing the cutest little dress.. all blue with little white frilly things .. and her eyes were all large and cute.. and aaaaaw...

*looks up*... @_@... that guy goes to my school.. @_@... @_@.. why is HE here?! why would anyone be at the library during spring break? they should be off having fun at busch gardens or a sleepover or something..

speaking of which.. why am I at the library?..

sigh.. stoopid elizabeth river project.. when i rule the world, there shall *be* no elizabeth river project.. *evil cackling is heard*..

just for the heck of it i took this quiz again.. and looks what i got *this* time!

Immortalized by the famous "Draco Sinister" (by Cassandra Claire), you are witty, sexy, and the typical bad boy girls love. You are paired with Ginny or Hermione, because they remind the author the most of herself. You have sudden special powers that enable you to go along special Voldie-killing missions with Harry and Co. At first you get on everyone's nerves, especially Ron's, but soon everyone learns to love you.
Everyone.
Find out which Draco you are.

this is more of what i had thought my result would be.. but the other result came up instead.. that wasthe first time i took it.. and then i took it again and got canon!Draco.. which is really odd because thats one of the most despicable Draco's out there.. and then i took it a thrd time and got this.. *evil grin*.. wow.. Cassie Claire's Draco Trilogy really *is* popular.. its friggin famous!.. even quiz results use it as a reference.. im telling you .. that fic is gooooood.. i love the way she portrays Draco... hes just.. so.. so.. coooool..

yeah.. this is the Draco that i wanted.. how i managed to get sexgod!draco is beyoooooond me.. eeek..

where the heck did they find that picture of someone wearing leather pants??

and then i took it *again*..

We're not talking about the dog here. You get on everyone's nerves except the author's, because she is playing out her own fantasies of having a blond of her very own. The most out of character of all of these "archetypes", you morph from Draco Malfoy into a blond and perky Harry Potter. You are most often paired with Hermione, even though she's Muggle-born and you would never do that. Forget about the books- we have a cute blond guy in our midst!
Find out which Draco you are.

this um.. sort of.. uh.. surprised me.. fluffy!draco!?!?.. i guess that fic by Maya was fluffly!draco.. hm.. its a good fic.. not really what the caption says..*ever-popular sweatdrop*..

and *again*...

Sob. Cry. Sniffle. You lead an awful existence, tortured by those such as your father, your House, Harry, Voldemort, Snape, and the list goes on. Often going hand in hand with Slashy!Draco, you are usually paired up with either Harry or (ew) Lucius. Sometimes suicidal, sometimes just very fond of how blood looks on your pale skin, you bitch and whine throughout the whole story. How depressing.
Find out which Draco you are.

now i must honestly say that ive never read a single good piece of fanfiction that involved this type of draco.. come *on*.. it leaves no room for fantasizing.. how boring.. hes all depressed and mopey.. tsk tsk tsk.. not interesting in the least..

then i took it again and again till i got this one:

A very rare find in this fandom, you are pure evil. Not quasi-evil, evil. You're a Death Eater, you have no conscience, you kick puppies and take candy from babies. You play the typical villain to Harry's hero. Romance usually doesn't make its way in for you, except with possibly a nice murderous Slytherin girl. What a fun existence you lead. Luckily, you're most likely going to die by the end of the fanfic anyway.
Find out which Draco you are.

i did read one fanfic with this type of draco...and guess how it ended.. yup.. he killed hermione.. gah.. i read it thinking it would be a nice little draco/hermione fic.. but noooooooo.. draco just got eviler and eviler as the story progressed and i just decided by the fourth chapter that the author was drunk and or high.. i extremely dislike this draco as well.. not just cuz he's evil.. but because he is so evil that he becomes boring and uninteresting... hmph..

i think there was one more draco result.. but well.. the piture associated with the result might have offended some people.. doesn't really offend me.. but well.. i'd better just stick to the safe side and not post it..

ive had my momentary entertainment.. now back to research.. sigh...

i was blinded by love at 07:40 pm on 4.16.03
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mwaha!
reading:nothing..
listening: the stoopid birds..

Commonly known as SexGod!Draco, you are usually bisexual. You are horny as hell, and gorgeous as heaven, and you take advantage of both of these things to have sex with ten different people in one chapter of one fic. You are cheerful and very open about your lust. It is rare that a threatening Voldemort-type plotline will come into your story. And...did I say you were horny?
Find out which Draco you are.

*evil grin*



mmm... wouldn't you just love to be draco for a day?

i was blinded by love at 02:23 pm on 4.15.03
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mrs. guy!
reading:pigman
listening:audrey hepburn

whooo!!

i love mrs. guy and our piano lessons!!! whoo!!!

i was blinded by love at 08:44 pm on 4.14.03
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WHOO!!!!!
reading: The Pigman
listening: Deep Purple

FRIGGIN SPRING BREAK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

there would have been more exclamations marks and it would have been italicized and in bigger font if not for the fact that i have to do research.. *groan*

Pop.. six... squish... uh uh.. cicero.. lipshitz..

guess what everyone!!! my hair is crimped!!! and i look a lot different.. i should do this more often.. change is good.. *grin*.. >)

i was blinded by love at 08:56 PM on 4.13.03
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gah!
reading:a mother in mannville
listening:chopin's nocturnes

*scream* this is sooooo unlike me!!!! GAH!!!! I can't believe i procrastinated!!! *scream*..

*sob*.. *whisper*..mommy

this is completely pointless.. blogs have no purpose! my entries are never interesting anyway.. all i do is exclaim about the most recent thing that has gone wrong and then sing atthe top of my lungs... sigh..

there really is no point in having this blog..

but then again.. i get to take online quizzes, and then paste their codes in entries.. which of course colors up my blog.. *smile*

i was blinded by love at 09:10 pm on 4.9.03
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short little update
reading:oh nevermind
listening:harry potter soundtrack

on the other hand mary... maybe a layout would be very very nice..^^..

you dont have to though...i'll find a suitable one eventually..:)

i changed my guestbook everyone! its Pucca now! it isn't as cute as i'd like it.. and its not red... but its Pucca.. so i guess it'll have to do.. it was either Pucca or CCS...T_T..ugh.. sign my guestbook!



i was blinded by love at 07:00 pm on 4.8.03
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i love a piano!
reading:biography-_-;;
listening:luck be a lady

oh i just adoooooooore piano... i cant wait until after all these competitions so i can start working on my chopin polonaise... and i wanna play that rhapsody no. 2 piece by franz liszt.. i think liszt and chopin are the two greatest composers who ever lived.. *dreamy sigh*..

i looove mrs. guy too.. shes soooo cool!!

okay now i sound weird.. gah.. okay.. must practice piano.. gah

i was blinded by love at 06:43 pm on 4.7.03
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sigh

must practice piano... must finish reading biography.. must then write up chart.. must finish erin's sketch... must clean up room..

i was blinded by love at 03:47 pm on 4.6.03
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bing crosby stuck in my head..
reading:..er..
listening:*bliss*^^

ive got bing crosby stuck in my head and its starting to annoy me because I DONT KNOW ANY OF THE WORDS!!!!!

sigh..

hm.. *begins to sing*..iiiiiiiin olden days a glimpse of stocking was looked on as something shocking... now heaven knoooooows ... anything goes...

now *thats* stuck in my head... oh goodness gracious.. gah..

*sigh*.. hm.. what else should i say?

oh yes.. everyone got their high school acceptance letters this past friday.. i think everyone i know made it into all the high schools they applied for.. *shrug*.. i guess its not that surprising.. courtney's decided to go to kellam though.. haha.. LOSER!!!!!!! .. *giggles madly*.. *pats courtney on the head*.. i hope you make some friends.. cuz you'll be lonely without crystal..

which reminds me (not really) of something else.. has anyone noticed the fact that my template is gone? now its just plain black and white and no background whatsoever.. i was going to just completely obliterate this site, and so i deleted all the html.. and well.. i then realized i didn't really want to obliterate this site.. ive had it for so long.. so i tried to get it back.. however, has anyone here ever tried to write a complete html script with no knowledge whatsoever about html? its hard im telling you.. while yes i can make things look bigger and smaller.. and i can also do links and emails and pictures and whatnot.. but you see my dear friend, that it very limited information.. when dealing with pixels i just get confused and flat out tired of all the little numbers and the ccs.. so therefore i just gave up.. so here is this pleasantly black and white layout.. hallelujah.. isn't it pretty?

now to talk about *why* i wanted to obliterate this poor little site in the first place.. why? because kathy decided she didn't want to be my friend anymore (maybe it had something to do with my insulting her html?) because she thinks im a *beep* (<--we can all guess the word cant we..?).. now why am i a *beep*? kathy probably has many reasons, but if all those reasons were placed into one single category.. that category would probably be called "im-not-her-friend-anymore-because-she's-a-complete-backstabber-and-she's-completely-inconsiderate-of-other-people-and-she's-a-total-ditz-and-i-hate-her-and-she's-worth-nothing-more-than-the-dirt-on-the-sole-of-my-shoe".. yup.. *pauses to think*.. that about sums it up.. kathy doesn't want to be my friend anymore and so i decided that i would just obliterate my precious site in order to keep her from seeing my site.. but then i thought to myself.. wait a minute.. she has every right to see my site.. america's a free country and so if she chooses to view my site, then so be it.. who am i to stop her? taht would be ocmpletely ridiculous.. and so, kathy has visited my site.. she has apparently been wounded and offended deeply by my words.. and she has decided that i am not worthy of being one of her friends..

now that taht is that.. i shall move on to more pressing matters.. MRS.GUY IS BACK!! I HAVE A LESSON WITH HER TOMORROW!!! I DONT HAVE MY PIECES MEMORIZED!!!

*sobs dramatically*.. oh woe is me.. *tears*

i heard this one piece by Hadyn.. Op. 24 or 34 or 54 or 64 or something.. in D Major.. and to tell you the truth.. i quite enjoyed it..i enjoy a very limited number of pieces that in a major key, but this is definitely one of the exceptions.. its all light and cheerful.. and .. i dunno.. its just very cool.. i like.. im gonna try to find the music so i can play it!

sigh.. now ive got to go finish reading christopher reeve's bio so that i can start working on my chart for english.. i also have to practice for tomorrow's piano lesson.. oh dear oh dear oh dear..

*dances merrily to the tune of "my shadow and me"*

*thinks*.. why do i have a blog?.. maybe it's to release my emotions.. and stuff.. cuz like, thats the whole point of communication right? to release emotions.. hm.. so when im feeling really really happy o write about it here.. and when something important is happening, i write about it.. why though? the people reading it probably dont care..

so i guess there really is no point in having a site unless you use it to release all your thoughts cuz you have too many in you mind.. hm..

how interesting..

*strokes beard*.. life's pretty cool ya know?.. i mean.. life's cool.. cool. yup..

i gotta go play piano now.. oh goodie

i was blinded by love at 02:29 pm on 4.6.03
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grand piano?
reading:Still Me(Chris Reeve Bio)
listening: ..?

anyone have a steinway they wanna sell me?

*sigh*..

piano lesson this monday.. oh dear.. my pieces aren't memorized.. T_T.. gah...

i was blinded by love at 10:17 pm on 4.5.03
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i love cassie claire!
reading: harry potter 4
listening:i cant do it alone

i loove this song.. *sings along*... *taps feet*..

*gets up and dances wildly*.. she'd go...
i go..
WE'D go...
.. but i can't do it alone!

lalalalalalalalalala

oh i adore cassandra claire... i just finished reading the new chapter twelve of draco veritas.. and i just barely managed not to faint... *sighs dreamily*...

*hugs draco*

i was blinded by love at 06:57 am on 4.1.03
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*scream*

SECOND SHOCK OF THE NIGHT!!!!!!!!!!! GUESS WHAT!!!!!!

CASSANDRA CLAIR RELEASED CHAPTER 12 OF DRACO VERITAS!!!!!

*fans self intensley*..

i think im going to faint from the shock and happiness..

i was blinded by love at 02:06 am on 3.29.03
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*shreek of delight*
reading:harry potter 4
listening:franka potente

i just finished watching a german movie.. it was reeeeeeeeeeeally reeeeeeeeeeally good.. i loved it.. one of those deep-thinking psychological movies that are just sooo interesting... i love those.. ^^.. it was called "Run Lola Run," starring Franka Potente.. and throughout the whole movie she is incessantly running.. very good movie.. 5 stars all the way! two thumbs way way up.. and all that stuff... all the actors in it were so good.. unlike chinese people.. have you seen those crappy chinese movies where the people cant act worth.. worth anything? horrible... absolutely horrible.. but this movie was just sooo good.. it was german like i said, so it had subtitles .. go subtitles!!! booo dubs!!! boooooo!

so yeah.. the movie was great.. i liked it..

fer some reason i just thought of something amusing.. a while ago i went to kathy's blog.. (by 'a while' i mean like, 6 months..).. and i was very amused.. every other word was either bold or italicized.. guess why.. haha.. because she wanted *everyone* to know that *she* knew html.. hahahaha... her text was like this and i nearly fell off my chair laughing, it was so funny..

gosh.. isn't that annoying though? not just reading it, but typing it up.. you'd have to keep moving your fingers down and pressing the shift and comma (and period) buttons so that you could have the little '<' and '>' signs.. not to mention the slashes.. ugh... she went through all that trouble just so she could let the whole world know she knew html.. haha.. and i bet people didn't even realize what she was doing, and just thought that she wanted to stress every other word she typed..

what a freak.. hmph..

*scream*.. OHMIGOSH!!! guess what I just found out!!!!!! FRANKA POTENTE HAS THE SAME BIRTHDATE AS I DO!!!!! JULY FRIGGIN TWENTY-SECOND!!!!!!!!!!!! *ScREAM*

i was blinded by love at 01:06 am on 3.29.03
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fer the heck of it
reading:textbook..
listening:chatter

im at school.. and i dont feel like doing any work.. so im just going to waste time ranting about useless information.. we're working on our Elizabeth River Project right now.. and its really really boring.. lalala... *thinks of song*..

a fiiiine romance.. with no kisses... a fiiiiine romance, my friend, this is!.. lalalalala..*continues to hum nonchalantly*..

crystal's a freak... lalalalala

crystal:so is rachel..
rachel: no im not.. ur the freak... freak..
crystal:fool don't talk back to me fool
rachel: you have bad grammar.. and you need to use punctuation.. and you're typing with just one finger.. bad bad bad..
crystal:i can't type diagonally
rachel:*exasperated sigh*.. fool
crystal:i use apostrophes
rachel: yeah well how come you aren't using any dot dot dots at the end of a sentence... <--like that..
crystal:i'm sick of this. notice the dot!woman!.!.!'?#$%@
rachel: *blink*... like i said, freak..
crystal:*crystal giggles*
rachel: *shakes head*..
crystal:stop nagging
rachel:*frustrated*.. ur not usingany punctuation!!!
crystal:and youre not using spaces
rachel:.. *blink*....

and that concludes today's episode of "Crystal the Freak"

*crystal glares*

i was blinded by love at 02:48 pm on 3.26.03
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oh dear!
reading:harry potter 4
listening:amadeus

eastern district april 19... and honors april 27.. honors will be no problem, and if first place went to ryan chalkley last year at eastern district, then i wont too much trouble ranking..

but then again... his technique is really good...

but then again, *my* technique isn't exactly bad...

but.. he even beat me in the classical competition.. gah...

simon's gonna beat me... maybe.. most likely.. but.. i still have a chance..

guess what im playing for eastern district!! im playing:
~aragonaise, by jules massenet (...)..
~Sonata Op. 79,Andante, by Beethoven
~Nocturne in F Minor Op. 55, No. 1, by Frederic Chopin

not in that order of course.. that would just be horrendous.. most likely the beetoven first.. then aragonaise, and ending with the nocturne... they're all pretty famous pieces.. well the beethoven isn't.. but the other two are.. the nocturne is my favorite nocturne out of all 18 or 19 nocturnes that chopin wrote..

speaking of chopin, guess what! im starting a chopin polonaise.. and its sooooooooooo pretty... i could just burst into blissful tears its so pretty.. only chopin can write such beautiful music.. *dreamy eyes*.. it starts out with just 12 of the same chords in the right hand playing repeatedly.. but its sooooo pretty.. well.. when yoi play it right.. which makes me hate my upright even more.. i cant get *any* sound.. *frustrated groan*... grrrblat..

now what is grrblat you ask? i dont really know.. i just thought grr was too boring.. since i use it all the time.. and blat is just funny sounding.. BLAT.. *giggles madly*..

i tend to giggle madly a lot dont i..?

oh dear.. *giggles madly*

i was blinded by love at 06:51 am on 3.26.03
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*sigh*
reading:pigman
listening:sugar ray

*sigh*.. lala.. turn me around again.. said we couldn't do it, you know i want to do it again.. oooooh oh oh oh ..every morning.. shut the door baby dont say a word..*rocks back and forth in chair*.. she always rights the wrong fooor me.. she always rights the wrong.. for me.. every morning there's a halo hangin from the corner of my girlfriend's four post bed.. lalalala... *whistles along with song*.. do it agian.. lalala..

er.. ahem..

sigh.. school.. urgh.. it feels like i haven't been to school in such a long time.. and i think its cuz ive been doing sooo much this past weekend.. spent nine straight hours at ODU on saturday.. *chokes*.. gah.. then came home.. fell asleep in my dress.. ate dinner.. then went back to sleep... then woke up at like 6 AM on sunday.. practiced until 10:45am.. then went to church.. came back around 2:30.. fell asleep again.. then went to david breitman's masterclass.. pretty good... i asked him if rubato was *completely* inapropriate in classical music... and after like 15 minutes of straight through talking about a whole bunch of stuff, he finally ended with, "so in answer to your question, my opinion would be that you should allow for freedom in classical music..".. so does he mean freedom/rubato, or freedom/freedom..?.. i think its the second one cuz he gave this one example where Beethoven's son was playing in a concert, and he played some his own work, but also some of his father's.. and people told him that it was fine for him to play his own music freely, but not his father's.. (this is where all the proffessors and music directors in the room chuckled and laughed..)..

david breitman is cool.. hehe..

i want to play the presto agitato movement of moonlight sonata.. get a recording if you haven't heard it, cuz its sooo cool.. a bit overplayed.. but if jason idol can do it, so can i.. hmph (he rushed a bit though.. but it was still good)

i was blinded by love at 05:13 am on 3.24.03
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oh deeeear..
reading:i am the cheese
listening:chicago

five words..

big.piano.competition.tomorrow.eek.

okay..maybe 7 words.. *scream* competition!!!!!!

im doomed..

mrs. guy doesn't leave till tomorrow and i miss her already.. *sob*

i watched "the pianist" today... well parts of it.. like.. about 45 minutesof it..(broken up)... but the scene when he plays the pinao at the end, and the german general listens.. that scene was just soo moving.. i cried..*sob*.. well almost... my eyes watered.. and i had to wipe my eyes a couple times.. close enough.. but if kathy hadn't been there i think i would have just sobbed.. it was just sooooooo amazingly gorgeous.. definitely a five star movie.. the piano playing was just magnificent.. sigh... i think im gonna make kathy burn me a copy..

i was blinded by love at 12:00 am on 3.22.03
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addiction..bad
reading:harry potter 4
listening:sugar ray <3

You have a goodbye kiss- much passion and longing,
but never lasting.

What kind of kiss are you?
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*blink*... ive never even been kissed!.. what the..!?

these quizzes are just too addicting.. sigh..


Brown Eyes

What Color Eyes Should You Have?
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my eyes *are* brown.. what the heck? well maybe brown-black.. ish.. gah


You are Elizabeth Bathory. (The bloodcountess)
Legend tells us that you, this very rich,
beautiful and high born woman tortured and
murdered some 650 young women and bathed in
their warm blood to keep yourself beautiful. In some stories, it is said you have drank thier
blood as well. You were a sexual sadist on a
grand scale. Ah vanity is your downfall. For shame!

Which Imfamous criminal are you?
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*scream*.. im not sadistic im not im not!!!!!!!!!.. im not vain either!!!!! ..well .. maybe.. just a little.. tiny bit... but im still not sadistic..*pout*..


Which CHICAGO Character are You? Find out!

oh goodie.. i like her..


Which Sarah Michelle Gellar are you? Find out!


i was blinded by love at 06:36 am on 3.17.03
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0_o
reading:harry potter 4
listening:the music man

Take the Purrsonality Quiz!

@_@;;... bombay..?

i was blinded by love at 06:20 pm on 3.16.03
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*dreamy sigh*
reading:harry potter 3
listening:all that jazz

gah! it's fanfics like this that make me adore Draco to the utmost... *sigh*.. if only all men in this world were like him... sigh..



i was blinded by love at 08:05 am on 3.15.03
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gah
reading:harry potter 3
listening:water

we've got festival today.. i hope we dont rush.. and i hope my bow doens't slip.. sigh.. and im in the front too!! gah.. what if like, i ruin everything.. and im the last person to play.. or if im late at the end of a piece.. gah.. *scream*.. oh well

i dont think i like hanakimi as much as i used to.. i mean i still like it as much as i used to, but ive come to realize that it has such a ...a... a dumb plot... i mean the sanoxmizuki moments are soooo very cute (they give you that tingling feeling) but overall, the story isn't very.. real.. mizuki hasn't eveg guessed yet that sano knows that shes a girl.. but it should be sooo obvious!!! *scream*.. i mean would sano hug her like that if she were a guy??!? gah.. either she's really really dense, or hisaya nakojo just wanted to draw more cute scenes and so she dragged out the plot a loooot... grrrblat.. hmph

mrs.guy's coming back!!!! whooo!! i've missed her lots... sigh.. yay! now ive got lessons again!! whooo!!!!

i was blinded by love at 05:31 am on 3.15.03
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hey dracie ur so fine..
reading:harry potter 3
listening:harry potter

sung to the tune of the Mickey song (the one they play during the credits of Bring It On)..

hey dracie ur so fine
ur so fine you blow my mind
hey dracie
hey dracie *clap clap*

*repeat*

it was in a fanfic i read.. and i was crackin up.. *sigh*.. good times, good times...

tom felton isn't that great looking.. but for some reason, when he dons those pretty black and green robes and starts sneering like crazy, i find his looks somehow so much more appealing.. *giggles drunkenly*.. sigh..

this completely goes against my morals, but i think i cant help but thinking to myself, "i love pretty boys!!"

oh bad bad me.. *bashes self on the head*.. hey *point* thats what dobby does.. gah! that thing is tres scary.. *shiver*.. it looked just how i had always thought it would int the movie and i was just horrified.. the way it kept hurting itself.. and bein loud and stuff.. scaaaaaary.. poor poor harry..

i must say.. daniel is such a pretty pretty little boy.. sigh.. i mean.. hes got the whole im-bone-thin-and-pale-white-with-dark-pretty-eyes-so-everyone-stare-at-me-cuz-im-so-pretty! thing going on.. sigh.. but hes childish.. and immature.. ugh.. but at least he's mean.. and he makes fun of me.. oh dear heavens lucky me! i feel like hermione.. *once again giggles drunkenly*.... hehehehehe.. dont mind me now.. >P

and now off to school i shall goooooo! whoo! im flying on my supercool (hey one of the gryffindors uses that word in book 4!) Firebolt! whoo! *thinks to self, "maybe im a little obsessed with harry potter... nah"*

i was blinded by love at 07:02 am on 3.14.o3
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eh?
reading:harry potter 2
listening: grown ups

What's your Style? Find out here!
Quiz made by Chesa

amazing isn't it? i took this same test a while ago and got something completely different.. maybe ive changed... or maybe it just has something to do with the fact that there were only three possible results anyway..

oh lookie what i found.. not that great.. but its interesting to observe..and it really works!



and one last thing... did ya know that i know two good looking guys and *both* of them are named daniel? woah.. coincidence? i think not.. *evil grin*.. im off now!

i was blinded by love at 09:13 pm on 3.11.03
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gah
reading:harry potter 2
listening:harry potter

levels of progress went okay i guess... im kinda tired of these songs.. and the nocturne isn't sounding as pretty as it had... sigh.. i still really like aragonaise though.. but anyways, about levels of progress.. i suppose i did okay.. my judge was really old and really short and really hyper... sugar-high? or maybe she didn't take her medicine or something... cuz she was all like *philipino accent*"i cant give you any higher *laugh* what do you want me to give you? excellent is the highest i can give you*laugh* your playing was wonderful blah blah blah..*laugh*.. *laugh*..." and so i just kinda laughed right along with her.. but shes the kind of grandmother i would want.. just cuz she's so.. happy.. wow... i was like.. how can someone be this pleased with the world? and i messed up some place and afterwards she was like "you played so good im just oging to pretend measure 25 never happened..*chuckle*".. sigh.. well at least i know what i got... but im still a bit disappointed that i messed up.. geez.. i hadn't even realized that i had been playing it wrong the whole time.. sigh... but it wasn't like a mess up in articulation.. i just memorized it wrong to begin with.. argh..

guess what.. we went out to eat after we picked up my uncle from the airport (oh yeah, speaking of which, guess waht! my uncles here!).. and i was sooooo stuffed afterwards.. urg... i could hardly move..and my skirt was feeling really tight.. argh..

and can you believe it? my uncle decided to give me a little gift.. mainly because he's never seen me before and this is our first time meeting.. A HUNDRED DOLLAR BILL!! i was like.. *blink blink*... *scream*... wooow!!!!!!! dang!!!

..how am i supposed to buy somethign with a hundred dollar bill?

i was blinded by love at 08:12 pm on 3.9.03
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sigh
reading:harry potter 2
listening:ac

once again i love lists... (and litsz!..haha..corny joke..okay go away..)so here we go:

Today:
~Church
~go to levels of progress
~pick up my mom's big brother from taiwan
~go out to dinner (what a wasteof time)
~bed around 8..sigh

Monday:
~piano lesson at five

Tuesday:
.. ~after school orchestra rehearsal.. T_T

and i dont have time now to write the rest of my week.. i htink my parents are awake.. but one more thing.. guess hwat! i actually bought a dress last night! and its pretty.. actually not that pretty.. i dontl ike it that much... but it actually fits me... but its purple... blech.. i wish it were red or black... sigh

i was blinded by love at 07:46 am on 3.9.03
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im at school... detention..
reading:harry potter 1
listening:my teacher..

gah.. i have nothing to do.. im bored.. in lunch detention.. yes we're allowed to use the computers.. im still hungry.. ihave fried rice for lunch.. yay!! my mom is great.. sigh..

i love draco!im getting a button that says "i *heart* draco".. isn't that great? only a dollar!! whoooo!

i was blinded by love at 12:22 pm on 3.7.03
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gah..
reading:the ox-bow incident
listening:hikari (kh ost)

i cant believe im listening to this song... true i liked utada for a while.. but shes so.. gah.. i dunno.. but.. *songs plays in background*.. *bass is extra heavy*... *begins to dance wildly and snap fingers, nodding head to the beat*... whooo!!!!

gah!! no no no!

sigh.. i give up.. it *is* a catchy tune.. and kingdom hearts is cool..^_~

her english bad... what a loser... and shes ugly too.. even with make-up.. now thats just sad.. even *I* dont look half-bad with make-up.. well.. not that i would know.. gah

tomorrow is kathy's birthday.. oh goodie.. whooo.. sigh..

i was gonna say something.. but i forgot what... man.. i hate it when this happens... grrrrrr

hm... maybe it had to do with my obsession with draco.. *evil grin*.. kekekekekekekekekekekekeke..

i need to join some "i love draco" cliques... lalala.. *begins to search for draco cliques*

i was blinded by love at 06:46 am on 3.4.03
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i archived!
reading:gah!
listening:judy garland at carnegie hall

~i archived!
~i have some of my pictures online now!(i think im going to add them to one of the side bars..)
~i have to take the ocean lakes high test today.. gah

sigh...

i was blinded by love at 07:50 am on 1.1.03
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